hazey_sunshine: ([negative] Peter Pan - walk)
2015-12-21 12:00 am


made by [profile] starwriterlv

*~I am a creature of light and shadow,
Sculpted by the weather, weathered by the wind.
Somewhere, lies perfect understanding...
I am stardust, ageless stardust,
Boundless stardust, looking for a home.~*
hazey_sunshine: ([positive] neither of us are secrets)
2015-01-01 01:54 pm

Book & Film List 2015

Films:... )Books:.... )
colour coded reviews, woo
*awesome ♥
*good / things I keep coming back to
*ok / good for one time
*guilty pleasure
*no gtfo
hazey_sunshine: ([neutral] blue bird of paradise totem)
2014-10-19 10:02 pm
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mission 101 #3

Start date: Wednesday, 1-4-15
End date: Tuesday, 26-12-17
1,001 days / 143 weeks / 72 fortnights / 33 months / 11 quarters

0 in progress ~ 0 complete ~ 0 failed
last updated: 25/1001

Complete 101 pre-set tasks in a period of 1001 days.
Tasks must be specific (ie. no ambiguity in the wording) with a result that is either measurable or clearly defined.
Tasks must also be realistic and stretching (ie. represent some amount of work on my part).

Read more... )
hazey_sunshine: (2013)
2014-10-19 01:21 pm

Book & Film List 2014

Films:... )
Books:... )
Following from last year's experiment with colour coded reviews,
I'm keeping the general idea but narrowing the options!
*just ok/guilty pleasure
*no gtfo

*Dangerous Women (anthology) )
hazey_sunshine: ([positive] playtime)
2014-09-27 11:59 pm
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mission 101 #2

Start date: Sunday, 1 January 2012
End date: Saturday, 27 September 2014
1,001 days / 143 weeks / 72 fortnights / 33 months / 11 quarters
25 - 28 - 47
last updated: 867/1001, 16-5-14

Complete 101 pre-set tasks in a period of 1001 days.
Tasks must be specific (ie. no ambiguity in the wording) with a result that is either measurable or clearly defined.
Tasks must also be realistic and stretching (ie. represent some amount of work on my part).

[In progress / Complete / Abandoned/Failed]
mission101 list )
hazey_sunshine: ([neutral] manga me 2011)
2014-04-01 12:27 am

reading/film recommendations

Books )
The Love Sonnets - John Dunne
Letters - Lady Mary Wortley-Montague
Stone Butch Blues
Creation's Heartbeat - Linda Schier Leonard [pagan]
Audrey, wait! - Robin Benwayith [TF]
High-Rise - JC Ballard [dystopian]
The Sari Shop - Rupa Bajwa
Of Poseidon - Anna Banks [TF]
Francesca Lia Block [TF]
Moonglass - Jessi Kirby [TF]
Rainbow Mars - Larry Niven [sf]
The False Princess - Eilis O'Neal [TF]
The Art of Wishing - Lindsay Ribar [TF]
Poison - Bridget Zinn
Speak - Laurie Halse Anderson
The Slow Regard of Silent Things
Homecoming by Cynthia Voigt
The Tulip Touch by Anne Fine
Hamilton by Catherine Cookson
Wicked by Gregory Maguire
Un-Jobbing: The Adult Liberation Handbook by Michael Fogler
The Complete Knowledge of Sally Fry by Sylvia Murphy
Self-Made Man: One Woman’s Journey Into Manhood and Back Again by Norah Vincent
Brown Girl Dreaming - Jacqueline Woodson
Red Azalea - Anchee Min
The Martian - Andy Weir
Wool - Hugh Howey
Android’s Dream - Scalzi

The Guardians of Childhood - William Joyce

Star Wars (dec)
The Moon and the Sun (april)
Victor Frankenstein (oct)
hazey_sunshine: ([positive] playtime)
2013-12-31 09:02 pm

Book & Film List 2013

... )

Books:... )
This year I'm doing a small amount of reviewing of things I watch and see, in the form of colour because it's easy, pretty and good.
On a scale of 0-6, where 6 is my favourite number and 0 is why did I even bother, can I have those hours back please?; this is my scale:
0-1 Awful, do not want
2 Abominable, guilty pleasure, sorry
3 Acceptable, good for a reason but wouldn't do it again
4 Attractive, nice at the time
5 Appealing, often revisited
6 Awesome Amazeballs, I will always love this, everyone should feel the same
hazey_sunshine: ([positive] neither of us are secrets)
2012-12-31 11:59 pm

Book & Film List 2012

Films I've watched:
... )

Books I've read:
... )

Please recommend books, films and music to me!

~ )
.A F-only link to a brief of my life so far.
hazey_sunshine: ([neutral] blue bird of paradise totem)
2012-12-27 10:26 pm
hazey_sunshine: ([neutral] Laundrette)
2011-12-31 11:59 pm

Book & Film List 2011

Films I've watched:... )Books I've read:... )

Please recommend books, films and music to me!


Read more... )
.A F-only link to a brief of my life so far.

hazey_sunshine: ([positive] Dirty Dancing)
2011-12-27 02:09 pm
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and if you're trying to find me, you found me


¿vendrás tú? por mis jardines vuelan
ya las primeras mariposas
sobre las rosas,
de noche los coyuyos
entre los yuyos.
sonríen las estrellas
pálidamente bellas.

¿y vendrás tú? se cubren
alegres, mis floreros
de madreselvas.
anda por los largos canteros
la risa azul del nomeolvides
y se cargan las vides.

tengo en el corazón;
árboles gruesos
prietos de ramas;
yuyos, retamas,
flores de malvón,
pájaros en las ramas,
todo eso tengo en el corazón.

¿y vendrás tú?
mis manos
fabricaron panales.
yendo de rosa en rosa cogí miel;
hice linos; no recuerdo de males.

el lecho mio es blanco
y es primavera. huele
bien, el alto barranco
mojado por la ría.
desde el mar que diviso
¿vendrá tu vela?
primavera es gacela
y furtiva,

—alfonsina storni
hazey_sunshine: ([positive] Phoenix)
2011-12-24 10:43 pm
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unfold me, warm me up, and breathe me

So, here I am, in my own flat, on my own, at Christmas.
I'm working. I'm the most single I have been since 2007 (in that I *am* single, but there is a potential development being carefully explored). I have a home. I have a cat. I am an Auntie three times over! I'm embracing my spiritual life again. I'm fitter than I've probably ever been. I'm pretty sensible with life in general. I can look after myself, and do.

 Upstairs I have a bag of wrapped presents from some of my family, that I will open alone tomorrow, whenever I choose to get up. I have just the right amount of cards to go up on my corkboard & the mantlepiece. I have a pile of vouchers and a few presents already in use. I'm both over- & underwhelmed by it all. I went upstairs a while ago and it just hit me again - I'm here. Finally. here.
I have been fighting forever to get to this place.
A place just for me, a space where I am not waiting on anyone else to follow through their promises, where I can just do what I want, just for me. I depend entirely on myself, for everything. If I fall apart, I look after myself enough that I can go on. If I rejoice, I feel my heart swell. I'm not giving myself away now, not pouring my heart out beyond empty into anyone else. And that feels so strange, but also, good, right.

I miss having someone to cook for, someone to hold me through the nightmares, to fall asleep & wake up next to, to share stupid in jokes with when I find something I want to chatter about inanely. But I don't miss the cost. The cost has almost always been too high, just always actually, if I'm honest. Because no one has ever given me back what I gave to them, not for ever, not unconditionally, despite how many times it was promised unasked for.

Anyway. This is finally my christmas. Christmas is about the birth of the new light from the blesséd mother, from blood and pain and longing and despair. I can really appreciate that this year and I have been praying to and meditating with Mary, Elen, Freyja, it's been utterly moving to open myself back up, alone; all one.

I am ready
to call in the light
to embrace

hazey_sunshine: ([neutral] manga me 2004)
2011-12-03 04:05 pm
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mission 101 - 51 completed, 20 partial; 2 abandoned, 28 failed

Start date: Saturday, 7 March 2009
End date: Saturday, 3 December 2011
last updated: 1001/1001, week 144, fortnight 72, month 33, on 3-12-11.
next comm update: at some point.
previous updates:
mission101 )

Disney film list )
Recommended Reading List! )
Detailed Updates! )Detailed Updates! )Detailed Updates! )
Detailed Updates! )
hazey_sunshine: ([positive] Phoenix)
2011-12-01 05:21 am


hazey_sunshine: ([neutral] Laundrette)
2011-12-01 12:08 am
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Ink ideas.


  • Ellen - black angel

  • Will - lynx / turquoise claw

  • Chris - white tiger cub

  • trish - jay feather

  • Davy -  fae: riddleseeker

  • me - fox / panda / hazel nuts & leaves

  • Heather - plant ?

  • ring-necked parakeet feather

  • Kerris&Corran / DiD - joined bunnies

  • ~ take the pieces and build them skywards ~ (inner arm) black & white chess queen pieces Leg:

  • white (&moss-green?) butterfly

  • red poppies right thigh (with butterfly on top?)

  • (white?) horse(s)


  • Left shoulder/ left/right lower back - Pia's blue bird of paradise

  • Right shoulder - Magpie

  • right back ribs - robin

hazey_sunshine: (Default)
2010-12-31 11:46 pm

Book&Film List 2010

Films I've watched:
91 )
Books I've read:22 )

Please recommend books, films and music to me!

guide & previous years. )

.A F-only link to a brief of my life so far.
hazey_sunshine: ([negative] Discworld - reboot)
2010-09-01 09:30 pm


As per the ability to now cross-post your comments whether they are on screened, filtered, friends-locked or public settings of other people's posts:

"If I find out that ANYONE is reposting things from my journal to their Facebook or Twitter,
even if it's their own comments,

There will be no second chances on this. My journals and my Facebook do not mix. Fuck that shit."
(- ganked from a friend)

Honestly, I'm hoping that the (so-far) 27 pages of DO NOT WANT comments on the news post have induced a panic meeting to produce a complete opt out of this ridiculous, evil idea.
But yeah. In the meantime, you repost, or you discuss anything in my journal outside of private conversations with only me, you're instantly banned. In fact, this just stands as a rule for always, and has done for a long time.

(obviously, reposting this sentiment to your lj is ok :P )
hazey_sunshine: ([negative] Peter Pan - walk)
2010-05-19 11:35 am


So, another friends cut today.
 Since everything is very odd for me at the moment. There's not any hard feelings from my end, I hope I haven't upset anyone, but at the end of the day - I have to be in control of as many aspects of my life as possible. I would expect anyone here, past or present, to understand and respect that.

hazey_sunshine: ([positive] define yourself)
2010-05-06 09:40 am
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Today's Rant: Voting

 If you aren't bothering to vote today, do us all a favour and either leave the country or universe.

(obviously this only applies to people who *can* vote in the UK...)
Election Talkings. )
hazey_sunshine: ([negative] stabbity)
2010-05-05 11:00 am
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never taste of the fruit, you never thought to question why

The grammar nazi in me is horrified.

 Silly christian fundamentalist from yesterday has been spreading this lie:
"In the King James Bible, many words end in "ETH". The meaning of putting "ETH" on the end of a word,
is translating it to mean 'Over and over and over again. Not once, not twice, but many times over'."

Seriously now? Seriously?!
When asked by someone where she got this info from, since the person rightly thought it was purely an archaic verb ending... she says that her son told her & he apparently studies Greek meanings in bible study and reads the bible-internet. So, OBVIOUSLY, that makes him some kind of expert on this.
  It took a minute of googlefu to confirm it is just a old third person singular ending . I informed the questioner.

 This is why we can't have nice things.

[yes, I will be twisting my butthurt anger back to just self-loathing soon.
possibly even turning it into a sef-improvement drive...]